so... i went on a date today with an ol friend... and i'm tired of dating already. my money is GONE!!! christmas is coming and my family is expecting stuff... i kinda want to just shoot them all... not really... and another friend said that she can set me up on a date with "a girl that's perfect for" me... apparently her name is rose, she likes anime and games, and she and this friend almost made out way back when... that's all i know about her... she showed me a picture of this "rose" and all i could see of her was she had dark hair and was wearing a beanie... that's generally specific, isn't it? so, i'm pretending to be excited... we'll see how it goes... after all, i have liked the name "rose" for some time now, but... how do i feel? i have become numb again... nothing but pain and longing for someone to love me, yknow? it kinda scares me... what if i'm so desperate i hop on the first girl that wants to do something? i'd hate myself if i did some bullshit like that...

on the plus side, stamp on the ground is as amazing as always XD and i also got a GIR HOODIE!!!! it's amazing!!! the zipper is his toungue, and it has his ears on the hood too XD... but... anyway... yeah... funny how my upsetness is wide, but my excitement is minimal... hmm... go figure?